When attempting happiness, I generally expect support...not disdain and silence. It's hard enough to try for things that feel impossible on your own, but when you're lacking support where you need it most...it's physically painful. Your back aches, your head is pained, your limbs feel heavy, your heart feels like it's being squeezed. I said… Continue reading
I'll sit and cry in the bathroom Because that's the only room That has space for my emotions, An ocean to pour down the drain Let them revive and recycle Into another tub Another girl, another day One more feeling to say And we will go overboard Right into the floor Smack, flop, plop Intentionally
I write and delete the same dumb stuff all day. On Facebook, in text messages, on here. Write..and delete...and write...and delete. All day. I say "dumb" stuff because everything in my life would break if i just say what i want to say.
I forgot about this about as much as i forgot about myself. I forget about myself a lot these days. What is self care? What is self help? Lol. Don't mind me. Just going through it. By it i mean everything, all at once, with no break. Ha. I'm just tired. Im always tired. And… Continue reading I forgot..
I need mom friends. I always hear about these mom groups, but I've never bothered looking into finding one. I'm too shy to make new friends. Why isn't life like high school where it's super easy to make friends. My husband spends more time away from home than he does at home: somehow he's found… Continue reading “Go do stuff”
Sometimes.. That's all you need. Sometimes that's what will make or break you. Sometimes the lack of positive reinforcement is what will break you. Sometimes the lack of appreciation will break you. Sometimes the lack of consideration will break you. Most times.. Something will always break you. My PPD has been back for a few… Continue reading Positive Affirmations.
Another night up at 230. Another night I have to be up for work at 630. Good times.
I am stuck in the mindset that my days do and will consist of: Wake up, work, come home, take care of Chris, repeat. Feels the same on my work days. Sucky thing is..I don't expect that to change. I've lost interest in doing anything else. I'm too tired all the time. I have no… Continue reading In a Rut.
I have a nurse that I started seeing not long after I found out I was pregnant. She's the coolest woman ever. Her name is Jeanina and she was a bunch of other moms she visits at home...for free! Today she asked how I was doing. she told me PPD creeps back up again around… Continue reading PPD / 5.5 Months Later
In order to take care of your baby, you need to take care of yourself. Here are the things that were most useful to me during those first few weeks. I'll list the basics first, then suggest some things for breastfeeding as well as formula feeding. Netflix/Hulu. You're going to be on bed rest for… Continue reading First Week Mom Must Haves!